In Sydney we have a few anime conventions a year, and I attend most of them. I dress up in cosplay and pay to just kind of walk around looking at merch and other people’s cosplays. However, I very rarely feel much of a sense of accomplishment these days, because I am not one for buying merch nor am I one for photography. Not even making my own cosplay makes me feel very good anymore.
To be honest, I hate sewing. I am so bad at it, despite having done cosplay at almost every single convention I’ve been to. My stitching is never straight, my cuts are all jagged, and I am like a madman when I put my foot on the pedal of the sewing machine. This time was particularly bad. I decided to do lining for the first time, which had to be the worst decision I have ever made. I basically failed at the very first step. And those pockets that were the reason I decided to do lining in the first place? Yeah I stuffed those up too. (Basically I cut where I should not have cut and I am still kicking myself over it.)
It was painful, it was rushed, it was just so bad. If I hadn’t started so late I totally would have just cut it all up and started all over. I was convinced this was by far the worst cosplay I had ever made.
Well it might really have been my worst cosplay costume, but this year’s SMASH was actually one of the best anime convention experiences I have ever had, and I’m not even sure why.
It might have been that I had something to look forward to this year. After being admitted into the exec team of our anime club at uni, I’ve felt a growing sense of attachment to the responsibilities of being an exec. It was exciting, seeing our stall and, despite not being the one manning it, feeling that undeniable sense of pride at the merch we managed to sell.
Some of the stallholders were also friends I made at the anime art sessions at university, and knowing this made me really start to appreciate the effort and plain guts it takes to put up a stall at a convention like smash.
Furthermore, everyone we met at the con was just absolutely amazing. Cosplayers, photographers, stall holders and attendees alike. Every time someone recognised our cosplay I just felt so indescribably happy, and every person who asked for a photo made me feel the whole process was finally worth it.
Of course, I also have to owe this to my lovely sister, who was up all Saturday night adding the finishing touches to her dress. And it paid off. Her cos was frickin’ amazing, and I’ll be forever grateful to her for sacrificing her time for uni schoolwork to instead work on cosplay. Without her as my partner it really wouldn’t be the same.
It’s such a shame that this might very well be the last con I can attend in Sydney before leaving to go to Japan for a year. It was also by far the best one I’ve ever been to.
A little support and encouragement really goes a long way, and it’s only now that I feel I’ve been taking for granted a lot of the blood, sweat and tears artists and cosplayers alike experience.
So I really want to say thank you, to all the smash staff, cosplayers, photographers, stall holders, my friends from uni, my sisters and all the other attendees. Thank you all for being so kind and awesome, and making my last anime convention in Sydney for the year so memorable and worthwhile and fun. I got there late, didn’t get any signings, didn’t buy much merchandise, didn’t do much of anything all…
But it was by far the best convention I’ve ever been to. And now I’m all excited for the next time I can go ^^
(I have some shitty phone camera photos on my tumblr: jira-chii.tumblr.com/post/1262… )